Move into my house sunday. Anybody wanna help? Pizza party at me n eds on ashlan and cedar friday at 9 bring everyone but also bring money for more pizza.
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- Mood: purple
-
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
azario- October 26th, 13:24
- my head is pounding it's killing me more and more each day
-
- azario
- October 24th, 1:35
Here’s where your story ends
Here’s where my life begins
No one knows you better than you know yourself
Everyone around you says you just need help
- i've been thinking baby that you're out of your mind pt 2
-
- azario
- October 15th, 3:31
so i just got off the phone. charlie is in bed with richard. i have to wake up at 10 tomorrow. i don't care.
i'm enjoying this smile.
- and than i thought slow down
-
- azario
- October 12th, 13:30
think of all the times this jerk has fucked you up and left you down.
sometimes i can hear myself think and i don't listen, haha. wtf.
i think i only really like 3 people at work the rest or just like whatever.
i asked my mom for money cause i obviously don't have any i probably would if my dad didn't steal my money saying he was doing stuff with the house and than not do anything!!! god, whatever i paid my phone bill.
so i don't know what's going on anymore with anything one minute she seems content and the next she's confused, i understand it all too i just don't want to believe it i guess.
what the hell am i talking about.
i need a shower.
i need to set my goals.
- you look awful with a mouth full of drugs
-
- azario
- October 10th, 13:59
so now i hope my head will straighten out and show me what i've known along. i try to open up i try to speed it all up, but i think this stupid fast forward switch is broken cause nothing is working anymore!!!
"you're a piece of shit"
i know please don't hate me forever.
i broke his heart is it possibe to break hers.
do i even have it?
i know by looking at you in the moonlight you are just as pretty when the lights turn on.
"pull me closer"
"i'm pretty sure this is as close as i can get"
i keep telling my head that i am a good person, cause i feel that i am, have i wronged anyone so bad that they have to hate me so much? what is so wrong with me?
the past? let's not talk about that, it fucking burns.
- Im sleepy too
-
- azario
- October 6th, 12:54
I told you that i could stay right next to you all day and i ment it. How does one show they are a good person? And her eyes were closed but she pulled so close i could feel her heart beating through my chest. I like you i said she looks at me i like you too but we are strangers. So ive been sleeping over at ashleys the past couple days its been really safe. Even though think too much i cant help but smile when she grabs my hand. Last night i went to dangers it was amazing they are coming back in 2 months. After the show i went to ashleys to go on a walk i was there for maybe 30 and left i ended up hating my dads so she let me come back and i was so happy she did we talked for a bit and i went back to my dads. I am happy. Thank you.
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- the format
-
- azario
- October 4th, 21:02
i'm at ashley's right now she says hi.
wine and dinner?
more like rape and dinner!
daks surveys make me laugh. my mind is a mess. every time i open my god damn eyes something comes and hits me in the fucking face and i wish there was some kind of place for everything inside of this brain of mine.
i've wrote down in a text "don't ever call or text me again" about 16 times today, but i can't bring myself to send it, that's something you would do. and maybe you can just find out on your own.
these bags under my eyes are not going away, maybe that's a good thing.
- Great
-
- azario
- October 2nd, 17:12
Im honestly so happy. But everybody leaves and id expect this much from you. Every day that passes everything gets more and more clear. We will see i guess.
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- tell me about your first kiss
-
- azario
- September 30th, 12:46
so i'm at cynthias right now cause i can't handle the mornings, i get so depressed and you didn't make it any better.
but right now sitting down watch degrassi and chilling i feel so much better and the one person i want to see tonight probably wont see me, but i'll still ask : D
i'm going to art hop thursday and i'm going to san fran next week with some special people. i wish i could say names, but i'm not for denyablity :P
time for a nap i guess.
- well well well
-
- azario
- September 29th, 16:17
i like where everything is going, but why does something always have to get in my way? i wish life was easy, but it's never been that way so i'm used to it.
i wish you would give me some direction, but that's asking too much right now, i'm just going with it. i hope you understand.
- on a lighter note?
-
- azario
- September 18th, 11:39
i got my hours back at work so i'll be able to pay my phone bill haha and i get paid today so i'll be able to pay my deposit.
everything is working out that's good.
i'm at daks now, yesterday we drove to nevada and stole smash and than came back, the ride up there was cool, but the ride back was stupid i hated it, we ran out of gas and had to bum for change and i was just thinking how hot and greasy everything was and how much i just wanted to sleep, but the ride up there was amazing!
in two weeks time i will be in a house with my friends. i can not wait to have my own room again, i haven't had my own bed in so long since i moved out of my dads house last march. i'm pretty excited.
well i'm gonna hang out with brett today and get my psp too.
- he told me
-
- azario
- September 17th, 20:48
every skyline and every night spent alone is tearing* me apart.
- adobe photoshop cs4 master collection...
-
- azario
- September 17th, 1:17
the words "i'm sorry" have been coming out of my mouth a lot lately.
can anyone just point me in the right direction and be like "this is what you have to do"
i need to sleep more and talk less.
.......
i can't stop picturing those eyes. why do they get so big when i stare into them? why do you get so close when our eyes catch? why are you doing this?
i have so many questions, they wont get answered.
i'm sorry.
- (no subject)
-
- azario
- September 12th, 13:06
- now?
-
- azario
- September 12th, 11:35
and they knew what i was doing.
but they didn't stop me.
nope, but they kept coming back for me.
now you look at me and think "he's a wreck" i am, i get stressed for such little things.
lana diagnosed me with laryngitis basically it says "shut your fucking mouth and drink a shit load of water" so i will.
did you know that whispering puts more strain on your voice than regular talking? weird right.
i wish i was able to see you with my eyes closed.
- blue?
-
- azario
- September 10th, 16:00
remember when everything was cold? the only thing to warm our bodies was the hair on our legs. so we became smart and started rubbing our legs together, now that was the worst idea we have ever had.
if only the cold didn't make me shiver, i wouldn't need your warmth.
but then wait, this is exactly what snuggies were made for, right?
--------
i'll split this post into two, ha.
so charlie, brett dak and armanni are moving into my house.
it is called the wolf den and we are the wolf pack.
this should be a lot of fun, don't you think?
"making out would defiantly mean a tug on the rug"
- welcome to a new day
-
- azario
- September 10th, 1:50
My name is samson
I am 12 years old
I like cheese
Feed me cheese and I'll be your new best friend
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- okay.
-
- azario
- September 6th, 11:19
Thanks for holding my hand even if it was brief it felt amazing
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- tonights gonna be a good good night
-
- azario
- September 5th, 12:02
sooooo I'm not getting fired at the end of the season I am keeping my job haha. also 25 cent raise after 90 days.
I hung with josh last night I really missed him honestly, he is a really good guy.
I have so much homework to do before tuesday which is test day.
I want everyone to know that I am not depressed come hang out with me and see for yourself my smile doesn't fade ever.
let's party.
Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com
- a beautiful girl can make you dizzy?
-
- azario
- September 3rd, 23:04
fuck that. beautiful girls think they can get away with everything. i'm fucking tired of being walked on and forgotten. so you say i'm the piece of shit? fuck you! god damn i'm tired of you think that you are so fucking perfect!!!! you're not and i'm finally getting my hands on something solid. i'm fixing everything that YOU broke and i'm fine with it.
i'm not strong at all to be honest.
but the more i think about what you did the more happy i am about finally looking at you and not seeing a beautiful girl, but actually a piece of trash.
now is the time to hold on to what i have and get back what i have lost.
let's move on.
goodnight.
